18 Weeks.... And 2 Days

I cannot believe I'm 18 weeks. It's crazy how slow days go and how fast weeks pass. I unfortunately still nauseous on a daily basis. I don't throw up all that frequently but that's probably because I swallow a Zofran before my body can toss any cookies. It's a bummer to still be so sick. I also have headaches pushing migraines as an every day event. I'm sure it makes my nausea worse and it's just something I have to deal with. I try to be sure not to take Tylenol unless I absolutely have to.

I have been so utterly concerned with not feeling the baby move. With Daxton, I could feel movement at 12 weeks. Not every day or even every other and it was very very light... but I knew it was him. I haven't felt that with this baby... Until early this morning. I was feeding Daxton a bottle at about 5:00 this morning... I was just rocking him when I thought I felt movement. I stopped rocking so I could focus on it more. I'm about 85% sure that it was my little baby.... I felt an excitement, "I felt her move!" Yes... My brain immediately thought HER. Maybe... just maybe it will indeed be my baby girl that I desire wholeheartedly. I can only hope. It was such a relief to feel like maybe I did feel movement. I know with Dax, he was wiggling up a storm by 18 weeks. He was SO full of energy. I'm sure that the Lord put him in my womb to comfort me from the heartache and concern after Kamdyn. He's still so full of energy that maybe I'll be lucky and this one will just be a calm baby and that it won't be anything wrong with her/him.

My ultrasound is just over a week away. I'm thrilled. And Nervous. I'm trying to stay positive and look forward to it. It's difficult especially because of the movements thing. But I need to focus on the good. Is it wrong to prepare for the worst though? I don't know. I'll probably not post again until after the ultrasound but we'll see. Hoping for the best! Please pray for me or keep me in your thoughts!