16 Weeks and Before

Third pregnancy in two years. How crazy is that!? Insane would be the answer. Patrick and I definitely weren't attempting to get pregnant. We didn't want to *TRY* for a least two years. I also wasn't on a birth control other than using condoms (which we obviously didn't always wear). Why? Because we didn't want hormones to mess with me and my Bipolar Disorder. That cut down a lot of them and then breastfeeding cut out the rest. Well I guess I could have gone and gotten an IUD. I've had one before. I would never do it again. It caused some big problems that I wouldn't want to go through again. So there we were... Just doing what married couples do. My first period since Dax's birth came in May. My June period never showed.... I took a test and it was negative. Well, turns out that I ovulated 2 weeks late. When I was expecting my period to come is exactly when my body decided to release it's itty bitty baby egg. I guess it sweet that we conceived during Family Reunion, even ironic.

July came... I started craving sweets, particularly chocolate. I was getting headaches, feeling sick when driving around town, and feeling ultra tired. I didn't want to take a pregnancy test. I convinced myself there was no way because I took that test in mid-June. On July 13 I took a test at 1 a.m. BIG FAT POSITIVE. With a shaking hand I popped my head out and told Patrick, "Well... we're pregnant." His reply, "Oh. Congratulations" with a confused and overwhelmed smile.

I had to wait until the next day to call the Doctor. My OB was on Maternity Leave so I wasn't able to meet with her. I made an appointment with a different doc, same office. They scheduled me for an ultrasound. Based off of my LMP I should have been about 7-8 weeks for the ultrasound. When I got there and we did it, little bean only measured 5 weeks 5 days.... but had a heart beat. My baby holds the technicians record for earliest heart rate on the ultrasound machine. The womb looked funny and what in a square shape.

Because the dates were off I had to schedule another ultrasound for the following week. I went in the the next week and was measuring right on at 6 weeks 5 days. What a huge relief. The womb had also started to become more circular. I felt so much better at this point and wasn't as worried something was wrong. After loosing a baby, you have a constant fear that something is wrong.. At least I do.

16 weeks and 3 days

First trimester was killer. Most days filled with frequently throwing up. Every day full of nausea and fatigue. I took Zofran 2-3 times a day just to be able to eat at all. I lost 6 lbs. There were a couple days when I didn't take Zofran because I read that there *may be increased risk of birth defects while taking it pregnant, but unfortunately I couldn't function without it. I ended up staying in bed those days and could hardly move. Weeks 13 and 14 were alright. My vomiting subsided and nausea was dimmed down. Week 15 I threw up a couple times which was a huge bummer and ended up needed to take Zofran daily again. And now here I am at 16 weeks and 4 days. I've thrown up once this week and have taken Zofran a couple times. I have an appointment coming up next week on the 7th. I'll be able to schedule my 20 week ultrasound for two weeks after. At around 22-24 weeks I'll have the echo-cardiogram which is a bit nerve-wracking deal for me.

We are seriously hoping for a girl this time. And I honestly think it one. My initial thought was girl. Then I thought boy for a few weeks. And then I became convinced it's a girl. My grandmother has the test to see what you are going to have. You have to leave the room while someone puts a knife under one pillow on a chair and scissors under another. You come back in and have to choose to sit in one of the two seats. If you sit on the chair with the knife you are having a boy and if you sit on the chair with the scissors it will be a girl. With all three of my boys I sat on the knife. I sat on the scissors this time too. Now don't be silly and think that this is why I'm convinced I'm having  a girl... Because that isn't the case at all. It's this under lying feeling... I will say that the fact that Pat and I have agreed on a girl name for the first time makes me think I might be right. With Kamdyn and Daxton we could not agree on a girl name. This time, we've already got on decided and haven't even discussed boy names. Maybe it's silly... maybe I'm being stupid, but I don't care... It says something to me. And if I'm wrong, I'm wrong... and that'll be okay. Only a few more weeks until I will know.

If It is a boy though, I worry about the disappointment I'll have. I want a girl so bad. I have had three boys and am more than ready for my girl to come. Hopefully I won't have to deal with it.

Anyway, I best be going. This is my second entry blogging today! I'll keep ya posted!



PS- Had to edit just to add.. I forgot to mention my WEIRD cravings. I have plenty and plenty of food aversions.. And rarely crave anything. However, I've found that whenever I smell my dish soap, bleach, or fabric softener sheets... I want to eat them. I would never do so... But it's an odd sensation!